It was an ok day today, nothing mayor besides a not-so-good ride. I deal with pain in my hands, knees and hips due to arthritis, also I have a heart condition and during today's ride I had chest pain, probably I'm fine and I just had an anxiety attack as Jeff thinks (he is my fiancé and he deserves a whole complete chapter) so I will be seeing my cardiologist pretty soon. Ruining my friend's ride made me very sad since we had to go back all because of me... There was a time when I'd do a ride like this with my eyes closed and enjoy it... not any more. After the ride Alex suggested to go to the movies, I thought it was a great idea and off we went. After the movie she tells me that she wants to leave to college on Wednesday, almost a week before classes start and that she was leaving the day before heading to school and stay at her friend's. I know what they do when she sleeps over at her friend's place, I know it in my heart and I also know why she is in such a hurry to go back. I just glanced at her and I said ok. I looked on the Internet for some type of daily reminder of how I need to handle the situations, maybe prayers, readings or something else... I'm glad Tuesday is getting closer and I will get to go to the meeting with Banana, my youngest daughter. I worry that she is trying to compensate for Alex behavior and I asked if she would go with me... She said yes and that makes me very happy.
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