I don't want to wait

I have the perception that we are always waiting for something to be truly happy... a new car, a new job, a new house or even a new love. I refuse to. I don't want to wait, I want to be happy now, RIGHT NOW.  It is amazing how ourselves sabotage our own happiness by desiring more and more. What happened to "count your blessings"?? Just look back and see where you came from? I am so bless to come from humble meanings because that always had helped me to put things into perspective. I don't want to wait until my big break comes to be happy. I just humbly ask God to let me enjoy this moment and to give me the strength whenever I need it. These last days I can tell something is going on with Alex, it's just a matter of time before I get that call, but I can't live with the fear falling me around like a shadow. I got her a Valentine's card that says we love her and we are praying for her. I've heard she is hanging with a younger kid and I've seen her posting on facebook at 3 or 4 am and her postings are odd. I pray God for serenity and strength. I know that I need to stay calm and keep moving. I was talking to banana the other day and I always try to tell her what a great kid she is and that appreciate everything she does ending always with a "I love you mija". I was almost tempted to tell her that Pepe (one of our dogs, her favorite) had a seizure during the week, I didn't because she is having her tests last week and I can tell she is stressed out, I just don't want to make it worse. I really hope she is not waiting for something else to come her way to be happy. I want her to laugh her heart out every opportunity that she has... like me... don't wait for anything that might never get here... just be happy with what you have right now, this single moment, one day at the time.